Surrendering
Chapter
22
Grams
sat down at the breakfast table while Richards prepared her a plate.
He did not prepare the plate for her because it was part of his job
or that she most likely would have asked him too any way. Richards
did it because he loved her.
“There
you go Darleen.” Richards then gave her a kiss on the forehead.
Grams
smiled up at Richards and said, “You spoil me, you know that?”
“Oh
yes my darling, I know. You make it impossible not too.” He leaned
down and whispered in her ear, “You are worth spoiling and I will
do it for as long as I live.”
Richards
made Darleen’s checks give off some deep color. She started to
giggle at his flirtatious attempts to make her blush. She turned and
gave him a soft kiss of thanks for the food and for making her feel
like a young woman in love still after seven years.
“I
shall be escorting Sarah to Lady Wilcox’s later this morning. She
confided in me last night that those were her wishes, although I do
not want her to leave.” Grams then took a bite of her ham.
“I
am not comfortable with you traveling back alone Darleen. I will go
with you and wait in the couch.” Richard’s tone was stern.
“You
know perfectly well I will want you to come in for a visit at
Wilcox’s with you by my side.”
She
looked up at Richards and he looked away. Grams slammed her fork on
her plate. “I am tired of you insisting we hide our feelings for
each other from the world Richards. Lady Wilcox knows of us and so do
most of the town’s folk as well as the surrounding towns. The only
one who does not know is Devon. I do not like keeping secrets from
him Richards, you know that and I want us to tell him together.”
Richards
turned from her and began setting out a few more plates. “I told
you I am not ready to tell him.”
“It
has been seven years I have been sneaking around my own house with
you. How much more time do you need Richards?”
“I
cannot give you an answer. We have been through this before Darleen.”
Richards glanced at her. He knew his answer was going to fuel her
already burning fire on the subject.
“Are
you embarrassed of me Richards? Is that why you insist I should not
tell anyone of us?” Grams lip began to quiver from the thought of
him answering yes. “It is my weight isn’t it?”
Richards
looked at her quickly. “You know nothing could be further from the
true Darleen. That was hurtful and offensive that you would think
such a thing of me.”
“I
am hurt and offended you insist on hiding your feelings for me
Richards. That is not love. That is shame.” Grams rose from the
table and ran out of the room.
“Darleen,”
Richards shouted to her.
Sarah
entered the dining room looking exhausted from lack of sleep. “What
has happened? Is she alright?”
“No
she is not and it is my fault.” Richards face was clearly showing
his emotions.
“Perhaps
I should go to her. Can you tell me what has made her this upset?”
Sarah walked to Richards and placed her hand on his arm.
Richards
pinched his lips tightly together and frowned. “I assume she has
told you of us.” Sarah smiled at him and answered yes. Richards
then looked down at her hand on his arm. “I have never wanted
Darleen to tell anyone about us, especially Devon.
Sarah
tilted her to the right slightly and asked, “Why not Richards? I
think Devon would be rather pleased about it.”
“Devon
is very important to me Sarah and I do not want to risk him ever
looking at me other than what he does now.”
“Which
is what?” Sarah asked.
“A
father of sorts. We have always been close since he was a baby and I
cannot take losing that with him. I fear he would think it to be
inappropriate. I am the butler Sarah.”
“I
think you are judging Devon before he has a chance to form his own
opinion on the matter. Do not under estimate how strongly Devon cares
for you Richards.” Sarah then asked him, “Are you then willing to
risk losing Grams and worse off, breaking her heart?” Sarah gave
his arm a slight squeeze.
“No,
I love her more than anything. I just do not understand why she feels
the need to tell the world. I am her butler for bloody sake. It just
does not look right.”
Well
I think she does not care what the rest of the world thinks. I
believe she cares what you think Richards.” Sarah’s tone was
soft.
Richards
gazed to Sarah with an understanding finally of what Darleen was
upset about. “I had not thought of it in that manor before now.”
Richards smiled and said, “Will you excuse me, I have to go
apologize for being a bloody ass to the woman I love.”
Sarah
laughed and released his arm. Richards left to find Grams. Sarah
looked around at all the food and started to remember the food fight
that had taken place in there. She began to smile at the thought of
Devon covered in food standing in front of her. Sarah then remembered
it was at that same time she realized she was falling in love with
him. She told herself she was a fool for believing in his eyes. They
had told her he felt the same, although now she knows that was what
she wanted to see in his eyes.
Sarah
turned and left the room. She walked right out the front door and
onto the front steps. She gazed at the stable and headed for them at
a fast pace.
“Hello
Lady Sarah. How are you this morning?” Billy asked her as his face
held a smile for her ear to ear.
“I
am fine and how are you Billy?” Sarah said as she removed her
bonnet and began smoothing back her hair. She continued walking
towards Runner’s stall.
“Quite
well thank you. Are you planning on taking him out for a ride?”
“Yes
I will Billy. Would you mind getting him ready for me while I change
into my riding attire?”
“Not
at all Lady Sarah, it would be my pleasure.” He was still smiling
at her like a fool.
Sarah
smiled back at him and said, “You are very kind Billy, thank you.”
She continued to smile at him warmly.
As
she left the stable, Sarah saw a carriage pull up and Devon was on a
horse riding along the side of it. Sarah stopped and watched as Devon
opened the door and gave out his hand to a woman inside. She could
somewhat see he was smiling at her. The woman then wrapped her arm
through Devon’s and he began to escort her into the estate.
“Lady
Sarah you forgot your hat.” Billy shouted to her from the stables.
Devon
and the woman turned towards Sarah’s direction. Sarah wanted to
hide, but she was standing in the middle of the drive at the bottom
of the hill.
She
watched as Devon saw her and then turned to the woman while pointing
at Sarah. Devon then moved towards the front door and rushed inside.
The woman starred at Sarah for a moment then chased after Devon.
Sarah
did not recognize the woman with her travel scarf and hat on. Who was
she and why did Devon bring her here?
Sarah
could not believe what she was about to do. Her feet started moving
towards the house and she had every intention of finding out whom
this woman was and why she was on Devon’s arm.
Devon
made his way to his study. He began to feel dizzy again and he was
having a hard time catching his breath. The woman chasing him entered
the room and saw him. Devon was hunched over and turning pale again.
“Are
you alright Devon?”
Devon
shook his head no and then managed to say, “Sarah is wearing a
white dress like in my dream. I…I cannot breath.” Devon’s
breathing was becoming labored and he looked scared.
The
woman went to him and placed her hands on his cheeks. “Take deep
breaths Devon, nice and slow.
Devon
placed his sweaty forehead to hers and closed his eyes.
“Devon?
What are you doing?” Sarah said as she was staring at them. Are you
kissing her?”
“Sarah?”
the woman turned around to look at her.
Devon
grabbed the woman’s waist, placed his head on her back, and
squeezed her tight. The woman let out a yelp in surprise to him
squeezing her.
“Brook?”
Sarah felt a sudden fury well up from deep inside her. “What are
you doing here?” Her voice was fierce.
“I
came here with Devon. I was hoping to see you,” Brook said.
Devon
had not really moved and he was not looking at Sarah. His head was
still pushing heavy on Brook’s upper back. Devon said softly,
“Brook.”
Brook
patted his leg and said to him, “Not now, in a minute.”
“How
do you know him Brook?” Sarah was trying to keep her composure but
she was not doing a very good job of it.
“My
father had introduced us and I rode back with him from my house,
where we were last night.” Brook watched as Sarah’s face fell.
“Well, what I meant to say. You see we.”
Sarah
did not bother to listen and walked away.
Brook
suddenly heard a thud on the floor behind her. She turned to see
Devon on the floor face down. “Again?” she said to him. Brook was
staring down at him lying next to the sofa, trying to think what to
do. After a few minutes, she decided she was going to need help
because he was not waking up.
“Hello,”
Landon said to Brook.
Brook
turned and just gazed at him. He was so handsome and he was talking
to her. He looked like a Greek god with golden skin. What had he just
said to her? She could not think with the way he was staring at her.
He said hello. Good God say it back.
She said to herself.
“Hello?”
Landon repeated this time teasingly.
“Oh,
I do apologize. Hello.” Brook’s gaze did not move from Landon’s
face.
“My
name is Landon and you are?” he said to her as he walked toward
her.
“Landon,”
Brook whispered softly.
“Well
that is odd, you having the same name as I do and a male name at
that.” He smiled at her.
Brook
smiled back and said, “Yes. No, I mean no!” She quickly gained
half her wits about her back. She gave her head a quick shake and
said, “I am Brook, that is my name, Brook, I am Brook.”
“Are
you a friend of Sarah’s” Landon smiled at her more devilishly to
see if he could fumble her further.
“Yes I
am. We are childhood friends. We also work at the library together. I
met Devon and he escorted me here.”
“I
see, so you live close to town?”
“No
I live three towns to the north. My father had introduced me to Devon
and-”
Brook
stopped and then gasped. With wide eyes she said, “Devon! Oh my I
had forgotten about him.”
“What
about Devon?” Landon was concerned.
Brook
stepped to the side and revealed Devon lying face down on the floor
behind her. “He has fainted, again.”
“Fainted!”
Landon knelt down to him. He could see he was sweating and pale.
“What happened?” Landon looked to Brook.
“I
do believe your friend is in love with Sarah. Every time he dreams of
her or as of now, sees her, he faints.
“What?”
Landon looked back at Devon.
“Why
is Sarah riding like a fox being chased and who are you?” Grams
said not very nicely. “Oh dear God! What happened to my boy?”
Brook
jumped out of Gram’s way as she was barreling towards Devon on the
floor at her feet.
“He
is alright. He has just fainted is all. Not to worry my scrumptious
cupcake.” Landon reassured her.
Brook
pinched her eyebrows together. She was not sure if she just heard him
call her a scrumptious cupcake.
Grams
slapped Devon’s face lightly to awake him.
“I
had used a cold cloth last night when he had fainted.” Brook said.
“Last
night? He fainted last night also. Grams asked her.
“Yes,
he had had a dream of Sarah and turned pale and began to sweat and
then fainted.”
“Let
me guess, he saw Sarah just now before he fainted?”
Brook
shook her yes confirming what Grams had asked. Grams looked to Landon
who was already looking at her and they both started trying to
refrain from laughter, given that is, of the serious nature of
Devon’s situation.
“Talk
about falling head over heels in love.” Grams said.
“Well
in Devon’s case, heels to face and then to floor,” Landon said.”
Brook
watch the two of them crack jokes while leaning over Devon. She
wondered if she was safe with the two of them. Brook slowly started
to back up, to find hopefully someone sane. She was stopped by a tall
firm body behind her.
Brook
slowly, without turning around looked up and over her shoulder to see
Richards standing behind her.
“I
need help,” Brook said in a small voice.
“With
Devon or from the two bumbling hyenas over him?” Richards asked in
his usual monotone voice.
“Both
I think.” She smiled at him wiry.
“The
two over there are for the most part harmless, that is if you do not
become a target and as for Devon, I have no idea why he is lying like
that.” Richards looked down towards her.
She
had not moved and her neck was kinked from looking so far up at him.
“He fainted, again.” Brook told him.
“Fainted?”
Richards’s voice was full of surprise.
Just
then, Brook and Richards attentions were draw to the three on the
floor by the sofa. Grams had let out a loud cackle that was bellowing
throughout the room. She was laughing so hard, she lost her balance
and her bottom bounced on the floor next to Devon’s head.
“Yes
well, I shall go and retrieve a cool cloth and will return shortly.”
Richards said with a slight smirk on his face from watching Grams.
Grams
then decided since she was already down she was going to lay on her
side next to Devon. Grams was lying with her arm bent to support her
head.
“My
loving queen of giggles I dare say, are you attempting to tease me in
that position?” Landon said in his most devilish voice.
“Oh
am I that obvious. Coy I am not but commanding I am my wild young
stallion.”Grams said teasing him back.
Landon
began to laugh hard. “You may command me in whatever way you
desire, my indulging sweet treat.
Brook’s
mouth fell open as she watched Grams laugh harder and slap poor
unconscious Devon on the back. She turned to Richards but he had
already left the room. Brook stood still and did not move.
Mean
while Sarah was riding away on Runner. She was heading towards Lady
Wilcox, riding in here white dress. She was not crying nor did she
feel like it. Sarah was mad and she was done with being hurt by Devon
Price. How could Devon, knowing I was
somewhere in the house? How could Brook do this my best friend?
Richards
returned with the cool cloth and a bucket. As Devon began to stir a
little, Brook went over to his side but was unable to get near him
with the two still laughing bodies over him.
Richards
said, “Would you two please excuse us, we need to get between you
two so we may get to the body lying on the floor.”
Landon
helped Grams to her feet and they both took a seat on the sofa. Grams
then thought of calling for some tea. She then decided she might try
to make some.
Brook
began to remove her coat and hat. With all the fuss earlier, she had
forgotten too. She knelt down next to Devon while Richards was
rolling him over to his back.
Brook
said, “Perhaps he would be more comfortable on the sofa.”
“Oh
you mean instead of the floor where two others thought he might be
better situated?” Richards looked over to Landon with a displeasing
glare. “Shall the Lady lift his body or will you offer us any
assistance today?” Richards said to Landon.
“No
of course.” Landon rose from the sofa. “I do apologize for being
rude to both of you. You have to admit though, it is quite funny that
Devon has fainted. I cannot recall ever hearing of a man fainting
before.” He looks to Brook and said, “Have you ever heard of such
a thing?”
Brook
shook her head no. “He fainted twice.” Brook’s lips began to
curl at the corners slightly.
“Yes
well, I am glad you are amused Landon, now lift his feet up,”
Richards said.
“You
have to agree it is unusual Richards. A man fainting over the sight
of the woman he loves.” Landon said.
Richards
gently laid Devon’s head on top of a pillow then stood up straight
to face Landon. “The boy has lost everyone in his life he has ever
been close to and holds dear to his heart, other than Darleen. He has
fallen in love and he is scared. The day you fall in love Landon, I
would like to be there the moment you realize you are and see how
well you handle it. Devon cannot love another person, only to lose
them again. He has watched Darleen go through hell and you know that.
Then he lost Benjamin. How do you think you would feel if you were
him?” Richards looked to Brook and said, “My apologies.”
Richards then left the room.
Brook
stood still next to Landon. After a moment of awkward silence, she
bent down over Devon and started to loosen his collar. She dipped the
cloth in the ceramic bowl of water then began to wipe his face and
neck with the cloth.
Landon
walked to the bar to poured a drink. “Would you care for a drink
Lady Brook?”
“Scotch
if you have some.” She answered him without breaking her
concentration of her task with Devon.
Landon
chuckled to himself, Irish women.
He watched Brook as she began trying to remove his coat.
He
walked over to her and helped without saying anything. They removed
his coat and Brook unbuttoned his shirt. Landon watched as she was
being very careful, but at the same time, she looked as though she
had done it a hundred times before.
The
cloth had been rung out tight and Brook wiped his forehead as well as
his neck again. She then began to lightly blow on the wet areas where
she had wiped him. Landon saw Devon’s eyes start to flutter.
Brook
said, “Devon wake up.” She wiped his forehead and chest again.
“Hey come on open your eyes. Can you hear my voice?”
Landon
at that moment wished he were Devon. She was whispering so softly to
him as she leaned close to his face. Her voice sounded like the voice
of an angle, soothing and gentle.
Devon
opened his eyes. He saw Brook and then Landon behind her. Brook told
him to lye still for a few more minutes. She turned and told Landon
she was going to get some tea for Devon and then she left the room.
“Are
you alright?” Landon asked Devon as he pulled up a club chair next
to the sofa.
Devon
did not answer with words he just shook his head yes and placed his
arm over his forehead, hiding his eyes from the world.
“I
was told you landed on the floor face first. It looks as though your
bottom lip is swollen.” Landon waited but Devon did not reply.
Landon shook his shoulder a little to make sure he had not fainted
again.
“I
am fine,” Devon said his voice sounding flat. Devon drew his knee
up and let it fall resting on the back of the sofa. He could not
bring himself to look at Landon. He felt foolish, fainting like a
woman. Devon knew he was never going to hear the end of this one.
Landon
stood up and said, “I will go find Richards.”
Devon
lay there alone. He wondered what was wrong with him. She was just a
woman, the same as any other woman, except for her long blonde hair,
big alluring green eyes and those soft sensual lips. Devon felt his
chest begin to tighten. He placed his hand over his heart.
“It
would stop hurting if you just allow yourself to feel what you feel
for her. How long do you plan to go on like this?” Grams began to
nudge at him in the shoulder. “I can’t very well have you
fainting in the middle of the street or worse off, while you are
riding your horse. Your heart wants what it wants and it will never
let you forget her Devon.”
“Please
stop talking,” Devon said. His arm was still over his forehead.
“Oh
my boy, you know me better than that. I will do no such thing. I want
you to be happy Devon.” Grams patted his leg.
“I
would be if you were quiet for two seconds.”
“Alright
then. One, two. Well now, you had your peace and quiet. What do you
plan to do about Sarah? She has left on her horse riding as if the
wolves were chasing her.”
“Why
did she leave?” Devon asked.
“She
had walked in on you and that girl. She thought you were kissing her.
Sarah ran past me in the hall without a word and went straight out
the front door to the stables. I have to say, I do not think I have
ever seen someone ride so fast.”
“Her
name is Brook and I was not kissing her. I felt dizzy and I believe I
was leaning on her back.”
“Why
is Brook here Devon?” Grams asked him with a hint of an accusing
area in her voice.
“What
is wrong with the people in this house? She is a friend of Sarah’s,
and I had met her father and that is how I know her. I brought her
here to see Sarah. Brook had not heard from her for two weeks and was
worried sick about her.” Devon sounded irritated.
“So
you did not kiss her?” Grams asked.
Devon
lifted his arm off his forehead and sat up. “What kind of a man do
you see me as?”
“Your
behavior lately has me confused and I am sorry for offending you.”
Her tone had softened.
“I
feel as though I do not even know who I am anymore Grams. I don’t
recognize my own behavior.” Devon sounded tried and fed up.
Devon
stood up and went to the bar. “Can I get you a drink?”
“A
small one perhaps.” Grams said. She watched her grandson quietly.
“I need to tell you something Devon.”
Devon
did not look away from his task. “Alright then I’m listening.”
He was looking for another bottle of brandy. “I have to go to the
drawing room for a moment. I need a bottle of brandy.”
Devon
left and made his way down the hallway to the other room was. He
heard voices as he approached the door. He nearly ran into Landon as
he came out the doorway.
“Pardon
me.” Landon said as he left through the front door.
Devon
went into the drawing room and saw Richards and Brook. “What has
happened?”
“Nothing.
Do you need help with anything?” Brook answered him.
Devon
looked to Richards. “Where was Landon going in such a hurry? He did
not say more than two words to me.”
“Please
excuse me.” Brook said as she left the room.
Devon’s
eyes remained on Richards while Brook passed by him in the doorway.
He could tell something was going on and he wanted to know what it
was. “Richards,” he said again.
“Sarah
was supposed to be leaving this morning for Lady Wilcox, so when she
left I sent her things over for her.” Richards paused. “Devon she
never made it over to Lady Wilcox. Landon has just left to find her.”
Devon
turned and ran out the front door to the stables. He grabbed a saddle
and fit a horse with it then took off down the drive.
An
hour later Landon came back to the estate. He found everyone in the
drawing room. As he entered the room, everyone looked to him.
Book
stood up and was clearly growing worried.
“I
did not find her,” Landon said.
“Devon
left shortly after you,” Richards said to him. “He may have found
her by now.”
Landon
walked to the bar and poured a drink. “I think he may know where to
look for her better than I.”