Surrendering
Chapter
18
“What
have you discovered Landon?” Grams face was full of concern.
“That
he is in love.” Landon turned to her with a smile.
Sarah
and Devon returned to the house. Grams began to give Sarah quite an
earful. “And further more if you insist on lying in the middle of
the field on top of a horse, I must be notified first. You scared me
to death!” Grams was shouting with her arms flaring around in the
air. Sarah stood before shaking her head in understanding. She glanced quickly over Grams shoulder at the two men at her back.
Devon
looked to Landon who was trying to keep a straight face. Devon said,
“Theatrical is she not.”
Landon
shook his head in agreement and turned his back to her. “That is
Grams though and I think she is amazing.” Landon said with a smile
at Devon.
Off
in the background, Sarah was still being scolded. Richards entered
the room bringing tea and snacks. He walked past Devon and Landon as
he said, “This will shut her up.” The two men could not contain
their laughter and burst out. Sarah began to smile as she had heard
what Richards had said.
Grams
stopped talking when she saw some of Molly’s mini muffins go by.
Richards began to pour some tea for everyone. Sarah turned to leave
the room.
“Will
you not stay for tea Lady Sarah?” Richards asked.
Sarah
turned and said, “I think I shall bathe first. Save me a mini
muffin for when I return.” Sarah then left the room.
Devon
over heard what she had said to Grams and wrapped a mini muffin in a
handkerchief placing it in his pocket. He joined Grams,
Landon, and Richards near the sofa.
Sarah
asked her maid Lisa, to draw her up a suds bath. It did not take long
for Lisa to fill the tub. Before she left she asked Sarah if she
needed her further. Sarah smiled kindly and told her no she may retire for the night.
Sitting at her table she let down the rest of her hair. She then
stood and began to remove her clothes. Gazing at her naked body in
the mirror, she wondered what other women looked like compared to
her. She realized she had never thought of that before now. She
examined her body in the full-length mirror. Turning around she
looked at her bottom. She wondered if it was too large compared to
other women? It looked large to her or maybe just firm and full.
Sarah turned back towards the mirror and gazed at her breasts. She
knew they were large enough because men were always gawking at them. She
lifted her arms up above her head to see what they looked like at that angle. She
thought it odd she had never once done this in the past.
Grams
had noticed Landon looking at Devon with that smirk of his. As
everyone talked with each other, Devon was starring out the window
thinking of last night with Sarah. He wondered if she had removed her
clothing yet. He could not picture her naked for some reason. He had
never seen her naked, well not entirely naked but knew she would have to be beautiful. He
thought about when he had grazed his finger across the top of her
bottom and how soft she felt under his touch.
Sarah
let her arms fall to her sides. She then stepped into the bath and
slid down under the water. It felt so good. She had not realized how
sore she was from riding. Sarah had used muscles she had not used in
over six months. She remained in the tub until the water grew colder.
She
braided her hair in a lose braid off to the side, seeing there was
not much she was able to do with it being wet. Grabbing a light
cotton soft blue dress, she to put on. Comfort is what she was looking
for. The dress was similar to the one she wore the night before.
Sarah
rejoined the group downstairs. Devon was the first one to see her
standing in the doorway. Their gazes locked. Devon loved her hair
that way. He smiled at her softly.
Landon
noticed Devon smiling like a fool. He looked at the doorway and saw
what was making him smiling that way. Landon chuckle to himself and
thought that maybe Devon needed a reason to notice Sarah. Quite
possibly if Landon was to began to adore Sarah a little, then Devon would have
to speak up about the way he felt for her.
Sarah
saw Landon’s expression on his face. Sarah looked to Devon and saw
why Landon was making that face. She quickly moved towards the sofa.
“Oh
look the dead is walking,” Grams said.
Landon
walked over to Sarah. “Would you like some tea Sarah?” He smiled
at her with his charming features.
“Yes
thank you Landon.” Sarah returned the smile.
Devon
asked himself. Why did he just call her Sarah
and not Lady Sarah? Devon moved in closer to
the group. He took a seat in the club chair. Grams was sitting at one
end of the sofa and Sarah at the other with Landon in between them.
Richards sat opposite of Devon in a club chair next to the fireplace.
“So
Landon, do tell me who is new in the ton this season?” Grams said.
“To
be perfectly honest, I have no idea. I do not have any interest in
getting involved with the young ladies of the ton.” Landon looked
to Devon.
“Grams
you know as well as we do that a man can become easily trapped. It is
best to stay away from the young ladies coming out and their
mothers,” Devon said.
“Ah,
entrapment is the name of their game I see. I will admit, I have
witnessed myself many a times men becoming trapped into marriages.
Does it not seem that it has gotten to the point, that a family can
merely suspect an inappropriate gesture and the poor chap is then
forced into marriage?” Grams asked no one in particular.
“The
men always comprise an option though. He can simply departed from a
scandal, were as a woman remains optionless.” Richards pointed
out.
“Yes,
why is that do you think? It does not at all seem just,” Sarah
said.
“Because
men can run about and chase skirts and proper ladies keep their
skirts down. It is the way it is.” Grams said. “Being a woman is
not easy to say the least. I personaly would not care to be a male. We
females do have our advantages.” Grams smiled at the thought and
looked to Sarah.
Sarah
began to giggle at Grams as she had winked at her.
“Landon
you have no plans to marry as Devon does not care too?” Grams asked
him.
“Not
at this time, perhaps in the future. I have far too many things to
complete before I consider taking a wife.” Landon said.
“What
if you fall in love?” Sarah asked him.
“Simple,
I do not plan too.” Landon chuckled and looked at Devon as if it
were that simple.
Grams
started laughing, as did Richards. Devon, Sarah, and Landon were
looking at each other.
“Falling
in love is never something one plans or does not plan on doing my
dear boy Landon. Grams said.
Richards
was still chuckling. “If you have ever been in love you would
surely not be saying that, Landon.”
“It
happens as easily as the sky releases rain or someone blinking.”
Grams said to all of them.
“Nor
do you ever choose who to fall in love with.” Richards said as he
looked to Grams and smiled at her.
“Yes,
that is true as well. One minute you are not than the next minute you
are.” Grams said.
“How
would you know if you are then?” Sarah asked.
“There
is no mistaking being in love. It is the strongest feeling on earth.
Love is a life force in its self.” Richards answered Sarah. “It
is a feeling like no other feeling. Love consumes your every thought
of the one you love and you cannot resist the feeling you have for
that person when they are near to you.”
“That
is true. The feeling is so powerful it cannot be denied. When two
people fall in love they feel it the instant they touch. A touch as
simple as touching the others hand or arm. Having that person brush a
hand across your knee” Grams said.
Devon
shifted uncomfortably in his chair. He felt as though everyone in the
room was reading his mind. He had felt that when Sarah brushed his
knee and he cannot control himself around her with every thought he
has is of her. Devon wanted to leave, but he couldn’t.
“What
does it feel like?” Sarah asked them again.
Grams
and Richards looked to one another, then Grams looked to Sarah and
said, “The moment they touch, it is if the world has fallen away
and all you see is the one who stands before you. A warm sensation
washes over your body as a wave washes over you in the ocean. You
suddenly feel alive and alert. Imagine walking though life asleep and
you are touched and suddenly awoken. Your heart begins to race, you may have a
hard time catching your breath, or you simply cannot move as you are
stunned by the rush of emotion. The sensation of the first touch is
something that you have never felt before. It is like a static shock
but over your entire body, your mind, and your very soul. The soul
knows and will not allow you to deny the feeling it desires and
needs.
“It
sounds painful.” Landon said with a light chuckled.
“It
can be for some. Have you never heard of dieing of a broken heart?”
Grams said to Landon.
“Can
that really happen to people?” Sarah asked.
“It
most certainly can and does. My sister Maggie died of a broken heart.
She was my younger sister and she was so very much in love.” Grams
looked to Devon. “I have told you the story have I not Devon?”
Devon
cleared his throat. “I thought she had died from a fever.”
“No
no no.” Grams said.
“I
have heard your family talk of it in the past.” Richards said. He
looked to Sarah and said, “Her portrait hangs in the hallway
outside Lady Wilsbee’s sitting room.”
“What
happened to her? Why did he leave her? Did he not love her back?”
Sarah asked Grams. Her eyes were wide with fascination, wanting to
know the poor woman’s story.
“Maggie
was just merely a year older than you Sarah my dear. She was
twenty-three years old. The whole family gathered for a family picnic
at my cousin’s estate. It had been dreadfully hot that summer.
Maggie was sitting under a large oak tree watching the younger
children fly their kites in the summer's warm breeze.”
“The
way that Bruce liked to tell the story was that, he saw Maggie
earlier that day running with the children in a field and her beauty
caught his breath. He was nervous and not quite sure what to say to
her or how to approach her. Bruce poured two glasses of lemonade and
walked over to her. He said his heart was beating so fast he thought
it my beat out of his chest. Bruce knelt down in front of Maggie, who
was sitting on the ground, and offered her the glass of lemonade.
Maggie’s gaze locked with his and she smiled at him. No words were
ever exchanged between them. Maggie reached out and touched his hand
that held out the glass in front of her.”
“Now,
Maggie and Bruce both say it was if they had known one another for
life times. It was many life times of the past, present, and the
future all in one single moment, in one touch. Bruce leaned forward
and kissed her.
“Bruce
and Maggie were engaged within less than a week. Our parents insisted
to a long engagement. The young couple in love did not care. They
were not waiting for the honeymoon to share their love with one
another. I know because I walked in on them. The position I had found
them in, I still to this day do not believe to be physically
possible.”
Everyone
started laughing. Sarah was smiling shyly. Devon looked to her and he
knew she was confused but trying not to show it.
“What
happened to the young couple?” Landon asked after a few seconds had
past.
“Oh
yes. Well they remained very much in love throughout their nearly
six-month engagement. Bruce was over at our estate from the time the
sun rose until long after it set. He wrote Maggie poetry, which I
still have to this day. When you were in the room with these two, the
room was alive. You could feel the love they had for one another in
the air around them.”
“Three
days before the wedding Bruce told Maggie he had to go pick up the
wedding gift he had made for her by a friend who was a jeweler.
Maggie did not want him to leave. Bruce was to be gone for a day and
a half. He had left early on a Thursday morning. Maggie sat in the
big picture window awaiting his return, right here in this very
room.” Grams pointed to the window seat at the big picture window.
“Friday
evening came and there was a caller for Maggie at the door.” Grams put her head
down to compose herself. “I still remember the cries coming out of
that room were the strange man was with Maggie. The whole house heard
her and grew silent. The carriage Bruce was riding in flipped over and crashed.
The driver had fallen asleep and Bruce was killed.”
Devon
heard Sarah gasp as she chocked back her tears. Devon leaned forword
and handed her his handkerchief. Sarah looked to him as he smiled at
her.
“The
stranger in the room with Maggie was Bruce’s old friend, the
jeweler. He gave to Maggie her wedding ring that held in it three
birthstones. Maggie’s, Bruce’s and in the middle of the ring, was
the birth stone of their unborn child.”
“Maggie
slowly died six months later of a broken heart. She never wore the
ring. She just held it in the palm of her hand.”
Grams
got up off the sofa and walked to Sarah who was trying to keep up
with wiping her tears. Grams held out her hand to Sarah. As Sarah
gazed at Grams's hand, she saw the ring.
“It
is beautiful.” Sarah said as she ran her fingers over the stones.
“Upon
her deathbed she told me she would do it all over again, even knowing
she would only have six months with him. “Live your life with love
in your heart,” was her last words to me. Then she handed me the
ring and died in my arms.” Grams said.
After
a few moments Grams said, “I think we have had enough of love
stories and tea. Devon would you like to pour us some drinks and we
shall have a toast.”
“What
shall we toast to Grams?” Landon asked her.
“We
shall toast to good friends and the pursuit of love.” Grams let out
a giggle.
Sarah
sat quietly and thought about the story and Grams description of
being in love. She had decided she wanted that. She wanted to feel
that feeling and share her heart with someone. She thought she had
felt that with Devon but she couldn’t have because if it was love,
then he would have felt it as well.
Devon
sat next to Sarah on the sofa as everyone else was by the bar. He
handed her a glass of wine. Sarah smiled as she looked at the glass.
She thanked him while not moving her eyes away from it.
“Are
you alright?” Devon asked her softly.
“I
am wonderful.” Sarah said as she was still smiling.
“Wonderful?
Most people would be saddened after a story like that one. You seem
to have lifted spirits Lady Sarah.” Devon chuckled as he teased
her.
“I
think I do. I think I may have changed my mind about marriage. I do
not want to be scared any longer of becoming hurt. I believe Grams
was right when she told us to live life without love, is not to live life
at all. I want to fall in love.” Sarah said to him. Then she smiled again slowly
at her glass of wine she was still starring at in her hand.
“Shall
we toast?” Sarah shouted happily. She then got up and knelt on the
sofa, resting her arms over the back of it.
Devon
remained quiet. Everyone else clacked glasses in a cheer. Sarah
looked down at Devon.
“I
cannot take a sip of my wine until you raise your glass with me Dev.”
Devon
raised his glass to her and gazed at her bright smile.
“Cheers
to you Dev, I hope you find the woman who will make you feel alive in
love.” Sarah said to him sweetly.
Devon
said, “If it happens then it happens.” Devon shot back his whole
drink in one gulp. He stood up and went to pour another.
Grams
moved over to where Sarah was and Devon could hear them discussing
the upcoming ball. Landon walked over to him as Richards, who he was
talking with left the room. Devon shot back another drink in one
gulp.
“I
can get you the whole bottle if you like.” Landon said then
laughed.
Devon
chuckled. “Why do women get so caught up in the idea of love do you
think?”
“You
do not believe in love?” Landon asked him.
“No,
I didn’t say that. I just think people should not chase fairy tales
their entire lives is all I am saying. If it is as Richards and Grams
describes it to be, then hardly anyone would ever marry. It could
take a lifetime to find that person. Could you imagine how much time
one would spend looking for it,” Devon said.
“Or
avoiding it as well. I think if you fall in love, you cannot deny it
to yourself. My parents are still madly in love after thirty years,
so I have seen it myself. Believe me Devon, my father still looks at
my mother like a fool in love.” Landon then smiled at the thought
of his parents.
Richards
entered the room and announced supper was ready. Grams and Sarah strolled
to the dining room arm in arm as Devon and Landon followed behind them.
Grams
had her usual place at the head of the table. Sarah was off to her
left and Landon was at her right. Devon was sitting next to Sarah.
They started the meal with clam chowder soup. As it is set down in
front of Devon and Sarah, they look at each other and start to laugh.
Richards
gave them the eyebrow and said, “Do attempt to keep it in your own
bowls this time. Otherwise, I do believe Molly will quit.”
Grams
looked at the two partners in crime laughing hysterically, which of
course made her begin to laugh.
“Is
there something in the soup?” Landon asked.
Sarah
started to slap her hand on top of the table. She could not catch her
breath.
Grams
shouted for everyone to stop laughing because she was in danger of
wetting herself. A moment later, she then announced it was too late.
Sarah
had rolled off her chair holding her stomach and was snorting.
Devon’s face was red. He watched Sarah roll off her chair and fall
to the floor. Devon burst out in a harder laugh.
Richards
took it upon himself to explain the incident that took place in the
room they were in and the explosion of food within it. He had
explained that Devon insisted Sarah had dropped her plate but
Richards added she must have had to drop it a thousand times over.
Grams
then began to describe what she had seen, as well as the way Sarah
and Devon looked when she had opened the door on them. Sarah and
Devon began to argue who had really started the fight. Sarah took
everyone else’s opinion about the matter and of course, they all
agreed Devon deserved it. Devon threw his napkin at Landon and
announced he was a traitor.
A
while later, everyone had quieted down and began to eat the now cold
soup. Landon looked at Devon who was watching Sarah as she was
speaking with Grams about the ball. He gazed at Sarah at times the
way his father looked at his mother. Landon had decided he would talk
with Grams about it later. Devon needed a little encouragement
concerning Sarah.
“Have
I told you this evening how breath taking you are?” Landon said to
Grams.
“I
do believe you have not! And to think, I have had to wait patiently
while you had not notice until this very minute.” Grams started to
giggle at her own witty humor.
“Please
do forgive me my beauty.” Landon picked up her hand and kissed it
gently. “Do not make me beg for an apology.” He flashed her a devilish wicked
smile.
“I
like my men to beg my dear boy and beg you will my exquisite
creature.”
Laughter
again began to fill the room. Sarah told Devon how she loved to watch
Grams and Landon do this to one another.
“It
is a contest to see which one can stump the other.” Devon said to
her.
“Or
whoever blushes first.” Sarah said.
“It
will end up being Landon, I’ll bet you. Grams tongue can become
quite wicked at times. I would wager on it.” Devon said with a
chuckle.
“Alright
then, what shall we wager?” Sarah said back with confidence.
Devon
looked at her and smiled. “I am not sure.”
“Perhaps
a dance at the ball. If I lose you get to pick my partner and if you
lose I can pick yours.” Sarah suggested.
Devon
said. “For one dance or every dance?”
“Oh,
shall we do it for every dance. This will make it much more
interesting. What if they have a tie?” She asked.
“How
are they going to have a tie at this Sarah?”
“They
could both very well blush at the same time. Could they not?” Sarah
looked to them then back at Devon.
“Then
we will split the dance choices for each other evenly.” Devon
stated.
“Agreed
then,” Sarah finalized it with a nod.
Sarah
stood and clanked her fork on her glass. “Devon and I have a wager
going concerning you two. I have wagered Devon, that Landon can make
Grams blush before Grams can make Landon blush.” She looked to
Grams and said, “Sorry Grams, I have blushed with the things he has said to
you.” Sarah then sat down.
Devon
looked to her and said, “He makes you blush?”
“Have
you not heard what comes out of the man’s mouth?” Sarah faced
forward and smiled.
“What
do you purpose we will get out of this? Landon asked.
Devon
asked him, “What would you like?”
Landon
replied. “Nothing from you Devon.” Landon moved his gaze to Sarah
“What will you offer to me Sarah?”
Sarah
instantly blushed. She looked to Devon and said, “Oh he is good.
Look at my face. I believe I shall win.” Sarah began to giggle.
“I
am not being serious. I do appreciate your confidence in my ability
though Sarah.” Landon laughed at Devon’s expression.
“My
boy, have no fear for you know my mouth. I shall not let you down.”
Grams was shouting.
“You
may start at any time throughout the remainder of the evening but,
everyone must be present.” Sarah said to all of them. “Our hope
is that by night’s end we shall have a winner.”
Sarah
sipped her wine. Devon leaned into her and asked her softly in her ear, “Do I cause you
to blush the way he does?”